I’m back from my winter hiding in Thailand and I was fully expecting the weather to be deliciously warm Springtime. But no, silly me, I forgot that this is England and the weather never goes to plan.
As I stepped off the plane I felt that immediate chill to my bones and my lungs filled with that strange but familiar icy air. I had expected I might to run away in terror but actually it was nicely reassuring.
I guess you can take the girl out of England, but not England out of the girl.
So, since being back I have become reacquainted with my ol’ faithful – the vintage aviator jacket that I found in a charity shop with my Dad maybe four or five years ago. Hoorah! There’s a silver lining to everything.
Right, so …. yeah …. how’s it going? It’s been a while hasn’t it. I’ve missed you all here on Rosalilium. As much as I loved my time working as a digital nomad and escaping the winter, it’s good to be home. And with that, it only felt right to come full circle and back to my old brick wall for a little outfit post.
Long time readers might remember this brick wall. Give us shout in the comments if you’re an old-schooler here at Rosalilium?
(apologies for the badly focused photos, we’re trying out a new lens and it’s rubbish)
For a while I didn’t do many outfit posts for a combination of reasons, namely just not having the confidence. My body shape was changing, my face is getting wrinklier, and the green monster came to visit – you know, the one that makes you look at all the young, beautiful, successful bloggers and makes you feel inadequate.
But something I’ve come to realise recently is, I’m not perfect, I never will be perfect, and it’s ok not to be perfect on my blog.
I think somewhere along the way we lost track of what blogging was all about in the first place. We became so good at creating and curating content, we became competitive with magazines, we evolved to a place where we were really quite skilled at this blogging malarky. But then I started to resent my blog, I found it a chore, Rosalilium was starting to disappoint me for not being good enough. I was starting to fall out of love with something that I had created. It was a sad time.
So I took a step back for a bit.
I created a new blog for my other passion – travel and discovery. I changed and updated the design on Rosalilium. And I just allowed myself to take a break.
Now I want to take it back to where it all began. I want to get back to sharing my story without being conscious of how it might effect my ‘personal brand’. I want to write with complete abandon and not be concerned that distant family members or long lost friends might read it and judge me for it. I want to share stories, ideas, things I find, insights and news without worrying that it might be misconstrued. I want Rosalilium to be MY space again. And I hope that some of you might be interested in that too.
So here’s to being happier in the my own skin; embracing my age and all the wrinkles, grey hair and bulging waistlines that come with it!