I am at a point in my life where I feel a major shift in priorities has come about thanks to, I guess, older age, experience and with that the wisdom that follows.
That shift in priority came about through questioning my own biases and assumptions from a lifetime of social norms being allowed to influence my ideals.
As abstract as that sounds right now I have this overwhelming calmness AND determination to live a more intentional, self-aware and positive life. One that attempts to explore all aspects of modern life with open eyes and enthusiasm. Much like that of a child, but with the wisdom of experience.
When I started writing here on Rosalilium in 2010 I had no idea what this space would become. My only reasoning for writing here was to start a collection of ideas and to feed the compulsion to write.
Over time I have been heavily influenced by the other blogs I have read, the journeys others have made and the successes they have achieved. Over time that influence has led to positive moments in my life, I have managed to create a virtual space that others enjoy spending time in along with some income to support my endeavours. I have been fortunate to have once-in-a-lifetime opportunities, I have made friends and I have started my own business. All things I would never have imagined was possible when I first registered rosalilium on Blogspot many moons ago.
However, at this very moment in time I am experiencing cognitive dissonance with my blog.
I wrote about cognitive dissonance very early on here on Rosalilium as I discovered the term through my Masters degree studies. It was one of those terms I was super excited to discover as it offered an explanation for so many moments and things I had experienced in life.
Right now though I am feel the need for an audit. A life and blog audit. One that will help me clear my mind of external influences, focus on who and where I am at, and ultimately strengthen the work I produce here on Rosalilium. Because as experience has taught me, when I am in tune with my own sensibilities I resonate more effectively with my audience.
But it’s scary. It’s scary to put yourself out there, to expose your true colours, be totally vulnerable. The what-ifs jump in and cause self-doubt. I have to learn to recognise that the self-doubt is my ego stepping up and that is not always most helpful to be indulging the ego.
Instead I need to embrace courage. The courage to be unashamedly myself, to be kind, to be open. The courage that by being myself I might just reach the people I would like to help, to serve, to entertain. The people I want to connect with here on the blog.
They say like attracts like. Well, let’s give it a go.
Here on Rosalilium I want to resonate with people who are open, kind and looking to live a positive life that celebrates the very best that we can be.