Time For A Change

I am at a point in my life where I feel a major shift in priorities has come about thanks to, I guess, older age, experience and with that the wisdom that follows.

That shift in priority came about through questioning my own biases and assumptions from a lifetime of social norms being allowed to influence my ideals.

As abstract as that sounds right now I have this overwhelming calmness AND determination to live a more intentional, self-aware and positive life. One that attempts to explore all aspects of modern life with open eyes and enthusiasm. Much like that of a child, but with the wisdom of experience.


When I started writing here on Rosalilium in 2010 I had no idea what this space would become. My only reasoning for writing here was to start a collection of ideas and to feed the compulsion to write.

Over time I have been heavily influenced by the other blogs I have read, the journeys others have made and the successes they have achieved. Over time that influence has led to positive moments in my life, I have managed to create a virtual space that others enjoy spending time in along with some income to support my endeavours. I have been fortunate to have once-in-a-lifetime opportunities, I have made friends and I have started my own business. All things I would never have imagined was possible when I first registered rosalilium on Blogspot many moons ago.

However, at this very moment in time I am experiencing cognitive dissonance with my blog.

I wrote about cognitive dissonance very early on here on Rosalilium as I discovered the term through my Masters degree studies. It was one of those terms I was super excited to discover as it offered an explanation for so many moments and things I had experienced in life.


Right now though I am feel the need for an audit. A life and blog audit. One that will help me clear my mind of external influences, focus on who and where I am at, and ultimately strengthen the work I produce here on Rosalilium. Because as experience has taught me, when I am in tune with my own sensibilities I resonate more effectively with my audience.

But it’s scary. It’s scary to put yourself out there, to expose your true colours, be totally vulnerable. The what-ifs jump in and cause self-doubt. I have to learn to recognise that the self-doubt is my ego stepping up and that is not always most helpful to be indulging the ego.

Instead I need to embrace courage. The courage to be unashamedly myself, to be kind, to be open. The courage that by being myself I might just reach the people I would like to help, to serve, to entertain. The people I want to connect with here on the blog.

They say like attracts like. Well, let’s give it a go.

Here on Rosalilium I want to resonate with people who are open, kind and looking to live a positive life that celebrates the very best that we can be.

Will you join me for the ride?


  1. This is so exciting!! I’ve pretty much been going through a similar thing all of this year, and it’s been interesting to see where it’s taken me. Looking forward to joining you on this journey 🙂 x

  2. Yes. I hear you here! I’m sort of feeling like this in my whole life. Its a bit of a cliché but after my diagnosis I’m sat here thinking that there must be ways I can be more ‘me’ in everything I do! I’m really excited to see what you do from here on out! X

    1. Not a cliche at all. I think moments like this in our lives force our hands to take stock and figure out our priorities. I don’t think we ever find it 100% but I guess that’s the fun of the journey.x

  3. I’m in, in exactly the same place, a pile of half written posts that don’t quite feel like me anymore! Too many blogs. And a blog title I am not sure encompasses me as a whole either. I am on a slow journey and it’s frustrating, but can gradually see things starting to make sense. It’s hard to let go isn’t it, of old goals. Blogs are like tangled webs too that can hold you back as much as propel you forwards!

    1. Yes! Nail on the head there. I think that as blogs are so personal, and often our entire business as well as online being, it can be incredibly difficult to step back and figure out how and where to pivot to.
      Here’s to new journey’s!

  4. Ooh, this is exciting and I can really relate with what you are saying. I’m feeling similarly; like I’ve changed a lot since I started my blog, like my interests, my priorities have all changed. It’s time to be more present in life. Where that will take me and my blog, and my life as a whole, I’m not entirely certain but I’m looking forward to the journey and I will follow yours with interest too!

  5. Yes! I’ve been feeling like this too, I’m still trying to figure out where I want to go but I’ll definitely be here to see where you go. Good luck! xxx

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